My dearest hidden God!!! I know you are everywhere and I am all immersed in your holy , loving presence. Still my eyes are blind. I know you are there by faith. I know that You love me more than I can even imagine or realize. I know it all by faith . There is not much that I feel. The fire of your love is there sometimes but most of the time it is gone. I am walking through a dark valley. There is often so much pain and there are many trials I experience. I love you even more in those trials. My dear beloved daddy- how I miss you!!!!! How I want to be with You forever. I am so happy with all these moments when I sit down in the evening and pray to you telling you of my complete dependence on you, of this dark valley and my great trust in you opening my whole soul in front of you. Then I feel that in this quiet darkness there is another bottom. There You are. Quiet , patient and loving. I am happy to be resting in You and I have the feeling that You are also resting in me. The two of us just meet , unite:You the God of the Whole endless Universe and me - a little sinful speck that You love so much.
